Occasionally I’ll discover an album that just perfectly sings to my current season of life, and the music chases all the bad stuff out and I suddenly see all the good underneath it.
I wish this winter would hurry, these days are getting blurry, and I don’t know where I am.
I’m dreaming of the springtime, oh but in the meantime, I’m weathering the storm.
(Here’s the end of the story before I tell you the middle: go search for Branches, and buy the album called White Flag. Actually buy it. I love it so much that I’ve listened to nothing else for seven days and cannot stop. The above lyrics are from track#15 and no you won’t notice how long the album is; you’ll want it to keep going)
It’s been a really weird winter, because good things have continued to happen all around me even as my brain is flopped over in a dark hole. So January hasn’t actually been a terrible month, I just feel terrible, and I’ve never been good at telling my feelings the truth(I’m a 100% F on the MBTI; it’s a struggle). Once the weather got so cold for so long in mid-December, I was done. So it’s been a lot like the first half of the national championship(me being Alabama and depression being Georgia).
Then yesterday I spent my entire day with people, and the weather was warm, and I listened to that magical music five times through, and I walked all over the woods with my brother, and by the time I was driving home at 9 I felt totally better.
Because my soul is fed by quality people, and good weather, and really great music, and being outside, and I stop feeding it those things if I stay depressed for long enough.
Conclusion: I’m only tired and sad because I’m lonely and cold. I can’t really change the weather, or the whacked out chemicals in my brain, but I can still be around my people, and choose to let music be my white noise instead of the TV, and I can write. And it can’t stay cold forever because that’s not how the sun works.
Find out what your soul eats and feed it. Even if it takes a little more effort than you want. Restful is better than easy.
And then for some great help with that, go here and download this app even if you aren’t part of my church. We’ve only been waiting for this series for almost a year and I’m so excited you’d think baseball was coming back tomorrow.